It wasn't well thought out, to say the least. Anyone who knows me, realizes that my ability to plan ahead is shaky. This makes things difficult when, say, planning for life, or for making tomorrow's lunch ahead of time. Because of this, my life is filled with uncertainty and doubt.
I don't think that this is a trait that can't be counteracted; I just don't know how.
It does make things exciting, though. In one lifetime, in the back of my thoughts, I dress myself up in different costumes, different adult figures that all end up being me. I am to be a published author, a translator, a preschool teacher, a medical coder, travel to New York to work at Bethel, am a minister in a faraway country, marry, have children, adopt children, sell photographs, be rich, be poor, own a house, live in a trailer on a piece of large land, have a fox sanctuary in my backyard, stay with my family, move away, have a farm, find the love of my life, etc.
Spontaneity: My way of life
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