Think cute thoughts

It’s that time of year again; my least favorite holiday. I don’t celebrate holidays, so you would think me completely unaffected by the hum and excitement that surround them: not so. It’s impossible to not be surrounded by it. Everyone has the ‘it’s a holiday’ aura.

The ‘it’s Halloween’ aura is the worst. It’s the one holiday that actually goes against my personality.

I will hide away in my room for the weekend, listening to grotesquely happy music, drinking soup and tea, and ignoring the laughter and knocks and doorbell dings echoing throughout the neighborhood. I like costumes: no, I love costumes. I love the idea of temporarily shifting into the embodiment of someone else for a night. But I hate Horror. What does this holiday really stand for?

 www.dailycute.net

fruits basket

Fruits Basket it my favorite show in the whole world. Watch this and feel happy (you should watch it if you have never seen it)

Clouds

 The clouds roll pleasantly along the sky, watching the people below. Their color is no indication of their mood; black clouds are no more agitated then white clouds, a common misconception. These gray clouds are responsible for a cold, vague world. The rain has stopped; everything is silent, waiting for what will come to come.
My mind wanders away, going from subject to subject, darting hectically.

I found these pictures from a cute site: http://daughterearth.com/blog/tag/illustrator/
I love the colors in here and the concepts. 
"Daughter Earth spreads awareness of endangered species and habitat conservation through the artful design of environmentally conscious clothing, accessories and housewares.  A portion of their profits are donated to conservation organizations which protect the animals and habitats featured in their artwork.  In addition, Daughter Earth works hands-on with these charities to promote their messages."

And a sprinkle of...

Your musical clip of the week!

Back to my roots

I was getting bitter - a gnawing, unsettling anger was drifting over my vision and now it has cleared. I was losing myself because I am a romantic and no one had any love. It was pulling away my beliefs, with long thin pale fingers, scratching and growling. And now the hands are gone. I am happy. I am at peace. True love exists and love at first sight happens everyday. If you don't believe me, I have no way of proving it. It's a sort of catch that love at first sight never happens to people that don't believe in it. Are you afraid that you won't find it becuase it hasn't happened yet? I was too. Do you think that if you cover your heart in leather, it won't bleed? I did that too. It wasn't worth it. Have I found love yet? no. Will I? Yes, I am certain of that.

http://keturahweathers.theworldrace.org/?filename=og-love

a dream

I had the dream again. I sit against the polished black wall of the piano, my back slumped at an awkward yet comfort angle. I can feel the force of the music, as each note slides through me, vibrating comfortingly. My eyes are closed but I know he is there, playing for me. I hug my knees closer to my chest and smile.

Lost Wendy

Lost Wendy

Bolted during midterms 10/13/10 – Shasta College area

Last seen at her home in Redding

Female-21 years old – Brown hair brown eyes – Caucasian

No collar

Call Wendy 440-0516

Happy happy happy happy Happy happy happy happy Happy happy happy

I have been instructed by my sister to be blindingly happy like I usually am. For those of you that don’t know me, I am blindingly happy.

All I have to do is to find myself

Apocolyptic ramblings

Blog #10
It is October 13, 2010. My food supply is still highly limited; just a square of meatloaf and a pear. Lunch is scheduled for 12 p.m. sharp, but I am inclined to believe that I will have to venture out into the world for more food before this day is done. I can’t think of a safe method. My evacuation vehicle had to be parked on the far side of the campus to insure many monies in my wallet.
No word yet from the Society of Good Things to Come. I am starting to think that they are avoiding me on purpose. Perhaps my letter got lost in the mail; things like that happen all the time. No word also from the newspaper on the competition that I surely must have won. No one could possibly have written a story as amazing as mine. They must also be avoiding me.

Today’s most distressing point – hovering vs. avoidance

Today’s most wonderful point – I will be observing little babies and toddlers for a large chunk of my day.

#1 list item – Taking care of my ticket.

Most prevailing feeling – lonliness

Greatest desire – It is a tie between the ceiling transforming into an intricate web of fluttering butterflies or finding a super cheap ticket to San Diego.

Result – undetermined

My Polaroid camera has come in the mail. Film, however, is more expensive then I originally thought. I need to find an alternative that fits the 600 Polaroid that my camera was designed to use. Fuji film or some weird business called the impossible project.

My other camera, in case you are wondering, is not working properly and my heart is not working properly because of it.

I have to stop checking my phone.

Monthly Update - October 2010

Real life threatens to break down the door. I have my body shoved up against it, but it’s strong.

My school semester is almost half over. Midterms are coming up, which means that I’m going to have to try and shove information into my brain. Despite this setback, classes are going well. I keep shifting in my opinion of my future, though. I still don’t know, “what I want to be when I grow up.” I never intended to actually grow up you know reader. I’ve been putting it off for a long time and it’s become something of a habit. Medical Coding is my most challenging class by far, but it’s also the one I get the most fulfillment out of. I haven’t had this kind of challenge in a long time.
My little baby niece was born this morning in the wee hours of the day. I’ve never seen anything so beautiful. I am now the aunt of two amazing creatures. I have also come to the conclusion that I can’t live in step and halves with regards to family. My sister in law is my sister; my second cousin is my nephew; my friend is my sister. It simplifies everything and makes me feel closer to the people I care the most about.
We are a clan; a tribe; a unit
Do you want to become a part of my tribe?

I am bidding on a Polaroid camera off of eBay. If I get it I will have a photo of the week to go along with my ramblings